Okay so I've always wanted a pair of booty shorts....you know those booty and leg hugging shorts that seem to show every last detail of your behind.
From the time I was in high school, I was unhappy with my booty and thighs. And so I hid them. I didn't wear long pants, but my shorts were baggy and hit a certain length.
And for the record, when I look back at photos of myself in high school, I'm not sure what the heck was wrong with me, thinking my thighs were big!
Let's fast forward....I've been running for a while now and always wanting to try booty shorts, but I've always been waiting for the perfect time to buy them, the perfect pair to wear. I made up a lot of excuses. Some of them were valid and others were just mental games I was playing with myself.
Well this summer I went to my favorite athletic store and decided that I wasn't leaving the store until I tried on another pairs of shorts to find the perfect pair for me. My husband dutifully sat outside the waiting room, nodding and giving opinions. Even when I came out in the another pair of black shorts, seemingly the same as the last 12 pairs, he was supportive.
I did find the right pair and I bought them. They sat on the chair by my bed for a while with the tags still on. Then I took the plunge and cut the tags off. Then they sat in my running drawer for a little while. I thought about what tops would go with them etc. I thought about how I would wear them and where.
Well I recently went away from home and I grabbed the shorts and packed them as one of only two pairs of running shorts for two weeks. (I washed and dried by hand every day). I got up one morning and out of impulse and necessity, put the shorts on.
I ran down Main Street and I honestly felt like everyone was staring at me. I was concerned that people were whispering about "Why someone my age or size would wear those shorts." As the weeks went on I wore the shorts, over and over again. Every time, thinking about it a little less. I also marveled at how comfy they were to run in.
So now, after weeks of having these shorts, I don't think about them, or myself in them. I love wearing them. And they have come to represent something so much bigger than a pair of shorts. I love myself, no matter what size I am. I love running and I am proud to get out there on the streets every day. Of others are judging me, they need to first look at themselves, because I am strong, happy and free.
Here are a picture of the shorts....and I know what you're going to say...they're not even that short or tight...baby steps people....
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